The tears. The silent knowing that in a moment of a test result your life has changed forever.
I read that the majority of patient's reaction to a cancer diagnosis is,
"Why me, God?"
Well, why not me? I mean I've sat at the bedside of young mothers taking their last breath. Why not me? Why them? Stupid questions that humans will never answer.
"You have leukemia" the doctor said.
"For the glory of God" I said.
And what did my husband say? He held me and said "I'd do anything to trade places with you. I wish it was me and not you." Bless this man who loves me as Christ loves the church.
How blessed I am to know the love of a man wishing he could die in my place
and the love of a Savior who did.
"Husbands, love your wives just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her . . ." Ephesians 5:25
May you all know the great love of our Savior Who holds you when life falls apart.
PS: Praising God for "targeted therapy" which targeted the cancer cells, destroyed them, and continues to stop their progression, while leaving my healthy cells alone. So, no hair loss, no sickness, no side effects. I have full energy and look forward to many years of service to my Lord Jesus Christ and to my dear husband.
PPS: I wasn't going to share my story, but, as my first response was "For the glory of God," I realized, if I don't tell people, how will God be glorified?
Splashes of Serenity, in the midst of cancer. That's what God does. He never leaves. He never forsakes.